wowie!

WOW..today is a special day. I get woken to learn that the place I applied to but was not in the country when the interviews were was waiting for me to call, and since I didn't, they did, and said the manager wants to see me take their test and find me something to do in their office. I am stunned, get some food and go to my room. I open my emails, and there are 2 unread messages. One tells me I got the acreditation for the Sziget Festival, and the other one is letting me know that I am one of the chosen 5 of many other applicant who applied for a youth-worker training course in Spain. Me, who is not even a member of the kind of organisation they are partnrs with. and it should have been a course for partner organisations. But they still chose me to represent the Hungarian minority from Serbia.

I think these must be signs that I shouldn't take the not so sure job in Ljubljana to work as a receptionist without papers...and then trying to get apers, VIs, and spend lots of time and money...

we will see. If they employ me in Subotica at this agency then I am not going to Slovenia for sure.

luck is only the strength of your belief!

I did an experiment. A bit dangerous but rather fun experiment. And it worked.

Imagine yourself taking a backpack, a friend (girl) and a few cardboards and a map, and just putting your life in the hands of other people to get to a place you haven't decided on. 

This is what we did. We set off on Friday. The only thing planned was that we, I mean I, had to get to ljubljana till monday noon. 

So we hitch-hiked. I know that for my friend this trip meant something else than for me. For her it was kind of a life experience that showed her and different people's lives to herself. For me it was a trip that proved that if you do not imagine the negative, only the positive, that is you don't think about things you are afraid of happening, but concentrate on the one thing you would like to hapen to you, it worked so freakily well, that it was funny.

The hitch-hike happened in the exact same order of stoping vehicles as I meditated on it the last night aloud ( meaning that I imagined that a person we know will take us on a part of the trip after the border. and it happened. then I finished my meditation with a car that we stop on the western side of hungary and which will take us directly to istria. This happened as well. we even made friends with them, adn spent the whole weekend together with them)

The things I didn't imagine or was afraid of did not happen. I never could imagine how we are hitching from istria to ljubljana. and it never happened. Noone would give us a ride, but 1 day before a guy gave us each 1 ticket to rijeka. he wanted us to go to  a party with him and his friends, but this was on saturday, in the evening, and we were so tired we had to sleep. So we in the end, got to ljubljana by train, which cst 15 euros. Subotica -> Ljubljana = 20 hours to opatia (with 4 hours spent in an apartment waiting for the car to be fixed, sleeping, showering,,, ) + 3 hours by train = 15 euro :)

Then the next thing. I got a job in Ljubljana, and I got a place to live in until I find one of my own, and I again didn!t meet Olga who was supposed to be my boss. and I think this is again for the better, coz she is strange, and maybe if I worked for her I would go crazy after a while. I will be working in a hostel...there are several hostels, but this one is special for several reasons.

When I did not know yet if we could sleep at a friend's apartment, I looked for acciomodation and found a hostel named Fluxus. Of course because of the Serbian cards and such we couldn't make reservations. I printed the map and all the details of the hostel just in case.

So I get to ljubljana and olga is working hard on not meeting me, but she sends me the phonenumber of a guy who "owns a hotel". I call the guy and he is really nice and helpful. He tells me to meet the next day. I ask him to write down the name and address of the hotel so I could go there and meet with him. And he says: go directly to F., and talk o his friend coz he is not there. It seemed so farmiliar, the name, but it was not until I noticed the whole place and when I realised it was a Hostel, not a hotel, that I realised this is again not a coincidence. Of all the  hostels, of all the people, of all the times, I get this one. If 1 step of our plan was different, we might have even slept in the F. and just had to go out of the room to meet the "new boss".

After slovenia, which we left with instant plan modifications, coz we left every station at least 6-9 hours later, so we didnt leave on tuesday but on wedesday morning. And we went to Wienna. and also we got 2 beds,, maybe the only 2 beds left in the entire hostel, coz 3 guys could not get beds in this or other hostels, but the 2 of us got them no problem. And it was 10 minutes on foot from the museums which we wanted to see anyway. So we were lucky? or well focused. coz we arrived in a 100% strange city and it took us 1 hour to find a hostel without a proper map. And this hostel was okay. cheap for Wienna, breakfast included, they stored our luggage all day till our train for free. So It was coool! I am sorry it ended, and also sorry that I cant tell all the small funny or incredibly lucky/focused bits, but it would be too long, and not interesting for unknown ears.

So..what got erased from thispost and what  have no strength to rewrite is, that this trip proved that by actively meditating on what yyou want, and not letting your mind drift to thoughts about what can go wrong, what is potentially dangerous and bad to happen, because by visualising it you set of a time-bomb waiting to blow. But if you think of what you want, and just leave it at that, do not think about it, coz it will trigger the bad thoughts, coz we are used to doing that. that is how he society conditioned our minds.

When we were still trying to get out of subotica to the border, older people were all commenting our idea. either by nonverbal signs adn some with speech: " Do you also want to fall into the situation you can see on TV?" (of course she said it much shorter)

and it was so sad to see how people live theor lives, ride their bicycles every morning, thinking that all the people in the cars and on the streets are bad, evil, want to harm others...why? coz it says on TV.,,,ÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁ

xxxx

before and after

Now you have been introduced to Haifa's new face, here is a collection of photos of the before and after eras. This is a very common thing in the arabic world, not only among the stars. The women depend on the beauty of their faces to get husbands, therefore they reshape the only visible thing on their bodies to be as attractive as their bank account lets them to be. :)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=a1QLB7nCPUA

desert dessert

so again, after all the European experiences, I am writing about the arabian ones..I suppose I am bored of what is happening here..I have to get away soon, and for a long time...

I finally came across the video of the Lebanese girl called Haifa. It will open a world for you which is a bit confusing..so there are the arabians who learn the Koran all their lives, and pray every day, who as women cover their heads more or less with scarves, who are really conservative when it comes to appropriateness of behaviour in public places. But their music and videos show, that this conservatism goes only to their main gates. When they are in the house, they become much more open...maybe they go even to other extremes, sexually, as that is what their culture revolves around if you look at it more closely. 

When I lived in their hotel for 4 days, I had a TV, a bed and a bathroom. As it turned out this hotel was used as a whore-fucking resort :) So the TV+bathroom+double bed seemed totally logical. I could watch a news channel, a talk-show channel and muzzika their MTV. Of course, I watched that one when going to sleep and after waking up.

The following video was on every 30 minutes every day, all day long. So I know it by heart, though I don't understand the lyrics..there are only few words I know:

ahedbek - I love you

bosa - kiss

wawa - child 

and I have thank you written down somewhere..( I'm not sure if you noticed what kind of words they are :) )

Ok so, this woman is lebanese, but popular all across the arabian world..she had a ton of plastic operations, but she is kind of pretty now at least..she had a bigger nose and a strange looking upper lip, also her eyes became more lifted...

Enjoy the sexy arabian language and people.. :P

http://youtube.com/watch?v=zVzg51IitRQ

intro to the next thing

It took me more than a month to post a new thing, but it is an eyepleasing video..for the men and for the video-loving people, and an intersting insight into th e real arabian culture of today.

I didn't write till now, coz I just couldn't get mydself to verbalize what was happening. It was a collection of concerts and parties and other things that I can't even remember, but it sure filled my days in June... maybe I will post a few links from the concerts..at least some photos or something..

arabian night

I've just had the most interesting experience.
I was talking to a Saudi arabian guy, who barely speaks english. but we managed to talk about some stupid things, even if it lasted 5 times as much as it would have if he could speak English, but it was interesting. He is a bit stupid. I mean not "un-intelligent" but not well informed about the world. Especially the internet. I am totally surprised he can use a computer, when he has no idea how to use google maps , which would be ok, but he doesnt recognise that the opening page is not europe or my country but USA...
and then, after a while sometimes some kind of radio broadcast tangled into our line..so from time to time I could hear a stranger's voice speaking in arabian..and after this happened like 3-4 times suddenly the line broke and we could only write to each other. and this was the point when I said I have to go to sleep..which is true. :) I do have to go to sleep :) it is 5 am..and i have to wake up at 11 the latest.

so blessed are the..who?

BALKAN SOUL!!

A totally non-profit party that is kept alive, annually repeating itself in different ex-yu countries purely due to our love towards each other!
If you want to feel and share our love, come to Palic on 20. 06. 2008. :)
it will be a blast!

Semi-finalists of Eurovision

OK, so what I showed below were the ones that are interestng, but did not go through to the finals, because of the ones I will list now.. not all of them, only the more interesting ones...as interesting as the poppest of the pop songs can get..coz these are those most painful radio-music songs.

The Russian one was funny, coz the guy was suffering and singing on stage, while a Hungarian violin player was doing the same behind him on a stradivari rather motionless, and then we learn why..coz he was standing on a 3by4 metres ice-rink, where Evchenco or Plushenko a famous skater was moving his hands like a ballet dancer.. :) hehe a comment on youtube: "he song is good but singer don`t know english.You`ll need more than old violin and famous skater to win"
Dima Bilan - Believing:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=KDJxR0fsbN8

Then the girl from Greece, with her sexy dancing and mouth wide open while accentuating her breasts, was bound to have won. Barbie is from Greece and she is moving her legs apart not only to the front and back, like my Barbie did...:P
Kalomira:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=XL_sQty2IMA

Lets see who else..oh the Finnish guys..:) LOL So a Finnish Metal band..tight leather pants, nothing on top, if there is, then it is some excessory, long blond hair, making faces, screaming and double bass...
Teräsbetoni:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=M1nzvDYycUw

The Norvegian girl was like very esthetic, a little lovesong, nice smiles, but I couldn't care less for their performance..boring..pop pop popp.. :)
Maria Haukaas Storeng:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=hJzGXPt4mvI

ok..I can't think of anyone else worth mentioning..I mentioned the Norwegian entry just for the guys reading this..girls, it is not worth the 3 minutes. Guys: you should also check out the Armenian girl with Quele quele, meaning "hajde, hajde! or Come on, come on!"
http://youtube.com/watch?v=e4n7n__vUIA

Eurovision

I never followed Eurovisin. I accidentaly ran into it half way yesterday..and from the 12. performance on, the only weird one, by weird I mean "not pop" was the Bosnia i Hercegovina performance. But in the end, when they showed inserts from the first 12, I realized, some countries decided to rather ridicule pop-culture than make a contribution. The estonian Leto Svet song, sung by two middle aged fat men, or the Irish sock-puppet Dj, saying sorry for the past few years of Irish pop music...I can only say: bravo! Punks rule!! :)
Estonia:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=by8veVA59Tc


Ireland:
Dustin the Turkey
http://youtube.com/watch?v=-kNloytljOo


and if you wish, look for:
Moldova eurovision 2008: http://youtube.com/watch?v=oplwycr3sRc
Bosnia and Hercegovina: http://youtube.com/watch?v=EJekvU3lLhI&feature=related

japanese poprockska

Today, I accidentaly saw a video , this video, on Subotica's worst TV channel..and I was stunned, and I ran to youtube of course to find some more musiic from them to check if they are a one-hit-wonder or not..and I found myself watching their concerts and videos for the next three hours and then in the evening...
They are called Go!Go!87188, the 2 girls playing the guitar ('79 generation) and the bass('80), and the drummer ('73) have been playing as a band since maybe around 2000, and have toured around the world since then..and I just "met" them today..well..better now then never...
They are so cool to watch, coz these japanese people just do not age! they look like they were 16 and in fact they are between 35 and 28...weird..
so enjoy! here is the link

Cairo

WOW
I still can't believe where my life takes me. Cairo....well...of course nothing can be perfect, but I think un imperfect something is better than nothing. I started off at 8 A.M. after 2 nights of concerts in small towns 150kms away from here..not enough sleep. I had been waking up at 7 o'clock every day before my departure to a far-away land..and then I travelled 19 hours, just sleep about 3 hours and be at breakfast at half past 8, have a meeting at 9 and go on to a self-organized sight-seeing tour in a city with 18 million residents at least, that is 65 km across. Of course we had no real idea where to go, what to see, so we went to the museum, and since my company was a group of 40year-olds and a couple of younger people who were no fun at all, the whole afternoon was about wondering around, not aggreeing on any goal. In the end, after circling the area around the museum, we went back to the hotel to chill out a bit. I did it on the 13th floor by the pool...In the evening we were supposed to go shopping, but we had to wait for someone's sister, who did not arrive, and so I just went to a back-street with two men, and smoked waterpipes. Next day we woke up at 4.30, had breakfast and went to work. I was feeling worse and worse with each day, zhanks to being very tired. The day passed in heat, on the centre of the city, and mainly in the embassy of Serbia, We were shown a shopping mall on the other side of the city by a woman that I knew from somewhere, and she also knew my face, but we couldn't figure out where from. I also saw the ZOO, and the locals were looking at me as if I were an animal as well.
In the evening-night I wanted to rest, but it was so hot, I couldn't sleep. So I drank some wine with a few young girls from belgrade that I got to know there and then. But still,., I only could sleep for a few hours till morning.
In the morning on Monday, I felt the worst..My pulse was high and I could hardly breathe. But the doctor in our group said it is dehidration, so after I drank lots of water and cooled off, I felt better the whole day. We went to the pyramids AT NOON!! Idiot tourists..in the desert at noon..but we survived and had great memories from there. In the afternoon we chilled at the pool, and in the evening we went shopping a bit and after having ditched the 2 boring old guys, my roommate gil and I walked alone through the center and I got to know an arabian guy, who made my wishis come true. wishes I had for the past 2 days, that were connected to cairo, and to having a full experience of it. And it all happened in the last evening. So I can only say, in the end everything turned out great!! :)
weehhaaaa

trenchtown

I was there and I had a hell of a good time :) yeah!! no details, it would fill the whole page and the internet. but i have a few scratvhes and bruises to remind me of the concerts and the drumming, the new aquaintances and everything :) if you go there, you have to camp out, at least 1 night, it is no fun without that :) not as much fun at least :)

oh my god!!!

I am working on my MA thesis, it is brutally hard work, but can only be done all at once, coz there are so many articles I have to remember, what was written where, that if there is more than 1 night between 2 writing sessions, then all that I have read just disappears from my mind and I have to read it over again..so the only way is to be brutally tired, but do it all at once. I already have the minimum required characters, but I still have to write some things..so I think it will be allright..I am just so anxcious...
help! help! heeeelp!

groupies, penises etc.

ok..I should be working on my dissertation..time is running out. I even finally made myself wake up before...a whole lot before...noon, and I couldn't start working on it. However I did spend the most unuseful 15 minutes of my time looking for a long-time-no-see website. I just remembered it had something to do with groupies writing about their experiences with 90s rockstars and rock not-stars..and finally I remembered how I got to see the page for the first time. It was of course by looking for articles about Axl Rose.. *blush*
so here it is:

the Penis chart , with 167 entries so far
and the Groupie Chart with the lesser 18 entries..but with the full list of who they did until 2005..the last time this page was updated..there are interviews and stuff as well among the links on the left hand side.. :)
ENJOY!

my luck has changed finally

yesterday i found 200 dinars on a bench infront of the theatre
then i met a guy i met at some youth conferences 7-8 years ago. him and some slovenian girls and i were spending most of our time together at the camp, but after that we didnt keep in touch.
but he recognized me, and he changed only a bit, so we talked before and after the concert and were laughing during it, and i hope we will keep in touch at least a bit now that we know how precious human relationships are, and how wonders can happen..
uhh, i think i am not making too much sense now.but i am in a hurry.. :)
then today i found something for my rollerblades i was looking for for weks :)

♪♪♪♫♫ "i think i'm just happy"♪♫♪♫♪♪

all your base are belong to US

how can america keep up all these responsibilities? they promised to help almost all countries in the world so far.. in 1969 a minister or whoever said this:
"this nation will keep its comitments from south vietnam to west berlin"..
ehh...ehh

Forest Dump Project

I finally got to the point where I wrote a proposal letter, and with the help of K. we sent it to lots of people. 6 daays later we already had an organizers' meeting and made the project plan and started the action plan for our project. the aim is to get the huge piles of rubbish out of our surrounding forests, and do this with he media behind us, with promotional parties, and hopefully lots of people behind us on 31st May, when we go into the forest and just clean it as it is. Also we want to find out why people choose to take their garbage to the forest instead of the legal dumps, and make a change in the system, in which there will be regular free garbage take-away missions, and also who brings a whole lorry full of garbage to the legal dump, they will be freed of charge. also it will be very fine to make the people collect their garbage selectively...so we have lots of plans.
already you can sign up to our mailing list here: forestdump2008@gmail.com
check and add us as friends on myspace: www.myspace.com/forestdump2008
we are there on poznanici.com as well

at all these places we will update the people on where we are in the project, what help we need, and when some action is due

we so much like the letter E..and ebeneezer as well

I don't remember seeing this video, though it sounds farmiliar. maybe because it sound like any other track of this kind..but i wanted to post it coz i accidentally saw it on VH1 and it was just so hilarious..especially coz they are so dumb - making soooo ridiculously obvious lyrics - that Ebeneezer is not just a name, but it sounds exactly like "Es are" and then goode = "good"...therefore they can sing about ecstasy and people "would think" they are singing about a dude who is a real party-maker..yeah right..oh, and he deals salmon...(salmon and trout, or just salmon is cockney for cigarettes, though it doesn't really make sense in this case, but i thought you might like to know)
so here is the video..enjoy...if you can... E
utu b

how convenient

so: .... parents can pursue their dream of bigger and better refrigerators while their kids are entrusted into the care of strangers, professional or otherwise... not only happening in 1st world countries
what kind of grown ups will they be? what emotional scars this will leave them with? it seems to be a question only we, the "childless" pose.

signs

i found these signs on my computer...i thought they were a little bit strange...if we think of them as representing our culture, the dos and don'ts, the images we are conditioned to understand...
for example: why is it forbidden for rollerbladers to chase skaters? :) or why should hikers and women with briefcases and strange hairdos park anywhere? + together? :) and did that man push the other one off that thing they were standing on? i am not even going to discuss the one with the toilet...