wowie!

WOW..today is a special day. I get woken to learn that the place I applied to but was not in the country when the interviews were was waiting for me to call, and since I didn't, they did, and said the manager wants to see me take their test and find me something to do in their office. I am stunned, get some food and go to my room. I open my emails, and there are 2 unread messages. One tells me I got the acreditation for the Sziget Festival, and the other one is letting me know that I am one of the chosen 5 of many other applicant who applied for a youth-worker training course in Spain. Me, who is not even a member of the kind of organisation they are partnrs with. and it should have been a course for partner organisations. But they still chose me to represent the Hungarian minority from Serbia.

I think these must be signs that I shouldn't take the not so sure job in Ljubljana to work as a receptionist without papers...and then trying to get apers, VIs, and spend lots of time and money...

we will see. If they employ me in Subotica at this agency then I am not going to Slovenia for sure.

luck is only the strength of your belief!

I did an experiment. A bit dangerous but rather fun experiment. And it worked.

Imagine yourself taking a backpack, a friend (girl) and a few cardboards and a map, and just putting your life in the hands of other people to get to a place you haven't decided on. 

This is what we did. We set off on Friday. The only thing planned was that we, I mean I, had to get to ljubljana till monday noon. 

So we hitch-hiked. I know that for my friend this trip meant something else than for me. For her it was kind of a life experience that showed her and different people's lives to herself. For me it was a trip that proved that if you do not imagine the negative, only the positive, that is you don't think about things you are afraid of happening, but concentrate on the one thing you would like to hapen to you, it worked so freakily well, that it was funny.

The hitch-hike happened in the exact same order of stoping vehicles as I meditated on it the last night aloud ( meaning that I imagined that a person we know will take us on a part of the trip after the border. and it happened. then I finished my meditation with a car that we stop on the western side of hungary and which will take us directly to istria. This happened as well. we even made friends with them, adn spent the whole weekend together with them)

The things I didn't imagine or was afraid of did not happen. I never could imagine how we are hitching from istria to ljubljana. and it never happened. Noone would give us a ride, but 1 day before a guy gave us each 1 ticket to rijeka. he wanted us to go to  a party with him and his friends, but this was on saturday, in the evening, and we were so tired we had to sleep. So we in the end, got to ljubljana by train, which cst 15 euros. Subotica -> Ljubljana = 20 hours to opatia (with 4 hours spent in an apartment waiting for the car to be fixed, sleeping, showering,,, ) + 3 hours by train = 15 euro :)

Then the next thing. I got a job in Ljubljana, and I got a place to live in until I find one of my own, and I again didn!t meet Olga who was supposed to be my boss. and I think this is again for the better, coz she is strange, and maybe if I worked for her I would go crazy after a while. I will be working in a hostel...there are several hostels, but this one is special for several reasons.

When I did not know yet if we could sleep at a friend's apartment, I looked for acciomodation and found a hostel named Fluxus. Of course because of the Serbian cards and such we couldn't make reservations. I printed the map and all the details of the hostel just in case.

So I get to ljubljana and olga is working hard on not meeting me, but she sends me the phonenumber of a guy who "owns a hotel". I call the guy and he is really nice and helpful. He tells me to meet the next day. I ask him to write down the name and address of the hotel so I could go there and meet with him. And he says: go directly to F., and talk o his friend coz he is not there. It seemed so farmiliar, the name, but it was not until I noticed the whole place and when I realised it was a Hostel, not a hotel, that I realised this is again not a coincidence. Of all the  hostels, of all the people, of all the times, I get this one. If 1 step of our plan was different, we might have even slept in the F. and just had to go out of the room to meet the "new boss".

After slovenia, which we left with instant plan modifications, coz we left every station at least 6-9 hours later, so we didnt leave on tuesday but on wedesday morning. And we went to Wienna. and also we got 2 beds,, maybe the only 2 beds left in the entire hostel, coz 3 guys could not get beds in this or other hostels, but the 2 of us got them no problem. And it was 10 minutes on foot from the museums which we wanted to see anyway. So we were lucky? or well focused. coz we arrived in a 100% strange city and it took us 1 hour to find a hostel without a proper map. And this hostel was okay. cheap for Wienna, breakfast included, they stored our luggage all day till our train for free. So It was coool! I am sorry it ended, and also sorry that I cant tell all the small funny or incredibly lucky/focused bits, but it would be too long, and not interesting for unknown ears.

So..what got erased from thispost and what  have no strength to rewrite is, that this trip proved that by actively meditating on what yyou want, and not letting your mind drift to thoughts about what can go wrong, what is potentially dangerous and bad to happen, because by visualising it you set of a time-bomb waiting to blow. But if you think of what you want, and just leave it at that, do not think about it, coz it will trigger the bad thoughts, coz we are used to doing that. that is how he society conditioned our minds.

When we were still trying to get out of subotica to the border, older people were all commenting our idea. either by nonverbal signs adn some with speech: " Do you also want to fall into the situation you can see on TV?" (of course she said it much shorter)

and it was so sad to see how people live theor lives, ride their bicycles every morning, thinking that all the people in the cars and on the streets are bad, evil, want to harm others...why? coz it says on TV.,,,ÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁ

xxxx

before and after

Now you have been introduced to Haifa's new face, here is a collection of photos of the before and after eras. This is a very common thing in the arabic world, not only among the stars. The women depend on the beauty of their faces to get husbands, therefore they reshape the only visible thing on their bodies to be as attractive as their bank account lets them to be. :)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=a1QLB7nCPUA

desert dessert

so again, after all the European experiences, I am writing about the arabian ones..I suppose I am bored of what is happening here..I have to get away soon, and for a long time...

I finally came across the video of the Lebanese girl called Haifa. It will open a world for you which is a bit confusing..so there are the arabians who learn the Koran all their lives, and pray every day, who as women cover their heads more or less with scarves, who are really conservative when it comes to appropriateness of behaviour in public places. But their music and videos show, that this conservatism goes only to their main gates. When they are in the house, they become much more open...maybe they go even to other extremes, sexually, as that is what their culture revolves around if you look at it more closely. 

When I lived in their hotel for 4 days, I had a TV, a bed and a bathroom. As it turned out this hotel was used as a whore-fucking resort :) So the TV+bathroom+double bed seemed totally logical. I could watch a news channel, a talk-show channel and muzzika their MTV. Of course, I watched that one when going to sleep and after waking up.

The following video was on every 30 minutes every day, all day long. So I know it by heart, though I don't understand the lyrics..there are only few words I know:

ahedbek - I love you

bosa - kiss

wawa - child 

and I have thank you written down somewhere..( I'm not sure if you noticed what kind of words they are :) )

Ok so, this woman is lebanese, but popular all across the arabian world..she had a ton of plastic operations, but she is kind of pretty now at least..she had a bigger nose and a strange looking upper lip, also her eyes became more lifted...

Enjoy the sexy arabian language and people.. :P

http://youtube.com/watch?v=zVzg51IitRQ

intro to the next thing

It took me more than a month to post a new thing, but it is an eyepleasing video..for the men and for the video-loving people, and an intersting insight into th e real arabian culture of today.

I didn't write till now, coz I just couldn't get mydself to verbalize what was happening. It was a collection of concerts and parties and other things that I can't even remember, but it sure filled my days in June... maybe I will post a few links from the concerts..at least some photos or something..